You can't help anyone.......

Okay so why does there NEVER seem to be enough time in the day to do everything I need or want to do?

I am unsure as to how I get in these situations where I never leave enough time to get stuff done...or never have time to do what I want to do, which is ususally just rest!  A friend and I were reading an astrology book and some things about that my sign, which is Leo, where right on.  Something about taking on things to get praise and needing praise to feel complete or something like that.  Yeah that's me all right!  I take on so much for everyone else, kid, husband, school the list can go on and on, wanting to help and heal everyone I know without focusing on myself at ALL!  Then I get pissy and resentful that I don't have time for myself and I get overwhellmed. 

Even my house right now, it's not that dirty or messy or anything but it feels like it is cause there are little things all over the place and it's like mental clutter!  I hate that! 

Anyways, okay so I have put enough energy into negativity.  lol
I was watching my favorite show a few weeks ago (Dexter), and there was a part on it about putting on your air mask before helping your kids with their air masks when you are in a emergency on a airplane.  You can't help anyone if you don't help yourself first.  So step one......stop saying yes to everyone.  Step two.....time management which includes taking time for myself.  Hmm we'll see where that gets me. lol

Being a Mom.....can suck!

So this week has been such a hard week.  Being a Mom has not been easy this week for sure.  I never in a millon years thought that I would be so stressed out about what my kid would be doing while she was at school.  This week my daughter fell at school off a zip line and really hurt her tailbone and got a pretty good sized scrape on her side.  A friend of mine was parent helper and offered to call me, but was unfortunately unable to get a hold of me.  And the teacher didn't contact me.  It bothers me that I see my kid hobbling up to me after school and I wasn't informed what happened.  She is away from me for 6 hours a day and I want to know that if she needs help I would be informed!!

I did a lot of thinking and chatting with good friends yesterday and I feel that it isn't a bad thing that she is sensitive but it does make it harder for her.  I can't change who she is, but I can support her in any way that I can and if she needs a little more snuggle then I will give it to her.  She is only 6 years old and I think that we expect her to be more grown up but no wonder she is breaking down cause she is tired and totally stressed about being good at school all day and doing the right thing and getting her work right and not getting in trouble.  She is only 6!!!  Maybe we require her to be more because she seems so grown up but she isn't able to deal with stuff when she is totally done by the end of the day.  Not only that, she is only a kid once and I am in no hurry for her to grow up, as it seems like the time is going by way too fast.

I can't protect her forever but that time doesn't need to be now, I can only help her deal with things that come up and provide a confortable, safe spot to land and have Mom take care of her the best I can.