Okay so thanks to my Aunt Deb, she suggested that I do a baby blog. Being that I am pregnant with twins and a have a lot of family that aren't in the area, this will keep them in the know what we are going through!
So first things first! (In the words of Jeff Probst!)
It took us almost 7 years to decide to have another child! And in the end of October I had my IUD taken out, and the doc basically said, I could get pregnant tomorrow! AHHH ;-) Okay so here we go! Fast forward to December 25, I took a pregnancy test and it said I wasn't pregnant, and I took the test, cause I thought oh wouldn't it be a great Christmas announcement!!! But alas it was negative. So then around January 6th I realized at work I was 8 days late and Matt was coming home that day from his last rotation in Kamloops. So on my afternoon break I was just hanging out with my co-workers and I mentioned that I was late...and did they think that was significant? They encouraged me to go and take a test, that one of the nurses would give me. So I did, and low and behold...there were two pink lines!!!!!!!!!! Matt arrived shortly after and I told him...he was shocked!!!!!! It really hadn't been that long that we were trying!! A month really.
When we went home, we told Emma and Dan and Colleen, cause they were watching Emma after school. And then of course we told my parents...well I let Emma tell my parents! Everyone was super excited. We decided to just start telling people, once Emma made an announcement at school!! lol We live in a small town and if something bad happened, everyone is going to know about it anyways.
So then probably two weeks later I started having cramps. I went to the ER and thought maybe it was a bladder infection. The doc ran some tests, and it looked like that, so i was put on antibiotics. Then about 3 or 4 days later I started spotting and I was still having cramps, so we decided to go to the ER just to be sure. The doc was concerned, called the OB in William's Lake and he wanted to rule out ectopic pregnancy, and i wasn't supposed to eat anything just in case I had to have surgery. I was devastated, I was preparing myself to loose the baby. The roads were terrible, it was so cold and just a terrible terrible feeling. So we meet Dr. Gill, who was a cross between Jeff Bridges and Josh Brolin. (more on the Jeff Bridges side) Anyways, he ordered some blood tests, and decided to do a ultrasound and see what we could see. So he did, and goes well...i see the fetus there, and a heartbeat, it's lying good, and..............there's another one there too.................I didn't even notice he said it, Matt did though, and then I noticed his reaction and I said what? He said there's two! But he couldn't confirm a heartbeat on the second one, because the first one was blocking it. So he wanted me to come back and get another ultrasound to confirm what was going on. What he said was I could be loosing the second one, and that's why I was having all these symptoms. Anyways, the very next day the hospital called and wanted us back for the ultrasound. So we went back around 4:30, and i was fully prepared to loose one. They did the test, not talking to me at all...it was really uncomfortable, and then finally they started logging in information on the results. They said the first fetus, had a heartbeat of 120 and all the measurements. Then they got really quiet. And finally started on the second fetus and said it had a heart rate of 115! So I said the second one has a heartbeat? She said yes...and I started a full on panic attack!! I wasn't prepared to have the news two were in there and they were fine!!!! Matt comes in and I am totally crying, they show us on the screen both babies and both heartbeats...it was amazing!
After I was done, I had to sit down for a bit and I was just shaking! I called my parents, and my Dad was home and I told him, he was so happy! Mom called back a few minutes later and she was shocked!!! We called Dan and Colleen next and told them the news! They were very happy as well!!
But me, not so much! I was freaking out...how the hell am I going to handle twins?? We decided to let the cat out of the bag...cause I figured the more I said it, the better I would take it and get used to it.
Everyone else was excited, but me I just kept having mini melt downs! That mixed in between getting sick, feeling terrible, sleepy, emotional and then full on bitchy attitude!
So then I found a baby doctor in town, and that happened to be the day where a bunch of people at different times, kept saying they knew someone who had twins and lost one for some reason...it hit me like a ton of bricks!! I want these babies, BOTH of them!!! I don't care how hard it's going to be, I want both of them, so of course that freaked me out and again crying fit!! I swear, i don't know how I have it in me to cry anymore as I have shed so many tears all within the last two weeks!!
The last Friday I get a call from the docs office and they want to see me, so I freaked out as usual!! I called them back and said, okay I'm pregnant with twins and super emotional and I need to know if everything is okay. (By the way this all happened at work!! SUPER PROFESSIONAL!!) So went there this last Tuesday and apparently I two additional infections downtown....GREAT!! And the medication states not to be taken in the first trimester. I got Matt to call Dr. Gill's office and they said to contact the Pharmacist they would know the latest info. So I called the hospital Pharmacist and she wrote this huge email about the medications. Basically the risks of the infection out way the medication risks and the only reason there is risks is because it is unethical to do testing on pregnant women. So Wednesday I took the first medication (which is one dose) and the very next day at work, I noticed I was spotting. By the end of the day I was full on bleeding. I went into another world. This was at about 4:30 as I was closing down the office and I told my co-worker and asked her to try and find Matt and I was going to be in the ER. I don't really remember walking down to the ER as I was bawling my eyes out. I found a co-worker of Matt's and told her and she took me into the private room, tried to calm me down, doc came in and they decided to do a mini ultrasound but told me it's not a good ultrasound, it's not meant to check for babies, just if fluid is in a belly or something like that. So he said he could see two in there, but couldn't confirm fetal heartbeats, so he did a internal to see if my cervix is closed. If it isn't, that's a sign I'm miscarrying. So my cervix was closed, but there was a lot of blood, so that's not a good sign. He put me on bed rest for a week and here I am. BORED OUT OF MY MIND!!!!!!!!!!!
Although, no cramps, bleeding has almost stopped, which is great. I just hate waiting around for stuff to happen!! It makes me crazy! And I'm supposed to be relaxing and of course all I can think about is oh is that a cramp?? Is it starting? I have just been through so much within the last two weeks, such a emotional roller coaster. Not to mention work stress that was going on too...I guess it's a good thing to rest for a bit.
So that's where I am...trying to have good thoughts and hoping that my two little cupcakes are fine and happy in there and myself trying not to go stir crazy here!!! So I'll keep you all posted to how things are going. I see the OB on Thursday and find out how things are going and what's the plan of attack.
