We're Home!!

Hello everyone!!!! We're back!!!

We've been home a week now and I can hardley believe it!  Time has flown by so fast.

It's been quite an adjustment having these little boys around.  We are getting used to them not  being in a hospital and having the support and piece of mind that a hospital provides.  I was almost ready to steal a monitor to keep an eye on them!

Things I have learned this week:

- Nate grunts A LOT!!!
- The boys each sound different when they cry
- Hudson likes to contort himself into what we like to call yoga positions
- Both boys like to cuddle a lot
- Nate gets mad pretty quick when we don't feed him right away
- It's pretty hard to burp both boys!
- Hudson is super easy going
- And that my face lights up when I see them, even at 3am!

Things are going good...I am so grateful that Matt is off for a month cause I would be a wreak if he wasn't!  I am super afriad when he goes back to work.  How the hell am I gonna do this by myself!  But we'll cross that bridge when we come to it. 

Emma came down with a cold last Friday and was super sick, which came at just the right time! lol  But that's okay we weathered that storm.  At least we didn't get sick!

Anyways it's just a quick note this time, as Nate is up and wanting some food! Take care all!

Update: Kamloops -- Not going so well...

Hello everyone

So I have some news.

Two days ago we were transferred from Surrey Memorial Hospital to Kamloops (Royal Inland Hospital). The boys were doing so well at Surrey that we were close to going home so we were able to get a transfer to Kamloops as it is closer to home and a shorter drive. (2 hours) We were flown out of Vancouver on a Jet and I gotta say that is the way to travel, but kinda scary as hell at the same time! The plane is SUPER small and boy is it fast!

So the boys and I arrived in Kamloops and Matt drove up with Emma. We were here before Matt even left my parents house in Surrey.

We got settled and they seemed to tolerate the trip well. Which was good...at least that's what it seemed.

Yesterday (Sunday) we were feeding the boys like always when we were supposed to give Nate his Vitiamins (Iron and D) as Matt and the nurse were giving them the vitiamins, Nate stopped breathing and started turning blue. He was basically choking and wasn't able to breathe. Matt had to give him some good wacks on the back and stimulate him and they gave him some oxygen. He started to perk up. It was pretty scary as I have never seen someone turn blue before. The doc told us that he was concerned that he was doing this, plus a heart murmur was found so now he has to have a echo to see how his heart is working. And as well, his brain bleed has stopped but it left a cyst. They are going to watch it and see what happens, but right now they aren't concerned. But he needs another head ultrasound. And they found out that both boys are anemic and Nate's L-Phos level is high which means his bones are getting soft and something is going wrong with the breakdown and build up of the bones. (Matt knows how to explain it better!!)

Then today (Monday) I was holding Nate and the nurse and I were giving him his vitiamins again. And it happened again! In my arms he went grey and blue and wasn't breathing. I had to smack him on the back and pinch his ear and he reacted a bit, but not very much. He nurse helped out and we again had to give him oxygen. It took a lot out of him and we ended up having skin to skin time for like 2 hours, which is the best thing for him.

We don't know why this is happening, hopefully we will get some answers after the echo, but who knows. It could be the altitude change and that he didn't tolerate the flight well.

So needless to say I am pretty emotionally shot and pretty upset. I feel so frazzled and scared, no one needs to see their baby go grey. And I sure as well don't want to take them home yet as I don't want this happening at home and I can't even think about them not being on the monitors, I may steal one!! lol

Anyways so that's what's happening. We are staying in a hotel just across from the hospital that thankfully varity club is paying for.

I am grateful for all the thoughts and prayers and again I'm sorry if i haven't contacted anyone, I just am not up to fully socializing right now, as I loose it when I talk about anything and I'm afriad when I do, I won't stop crying.

Here are some recent pictures (as of today) You can see how pale Nate is compared to Hudson! But you can see why I just want to cuddle them!

Hudson

Nate

Take care all!

Life with Twins in the NICU

As you all may know now we are on week 6 of our twin boys being in the NICU in the Hospital. We have been through a lot these days and are far from home! It's been a long haul but we can almost see the light at the end of the tunnel. We were going to be transferred out yesterday but was cancelled as there was then no bed to go to another hospital closer to home. It happens all the time and there's nothing we can do about it, but it is a emotional roller coaster.

I just want to be back home and do 'Mom' things!! Right now my days consist of having someone else take care of my boys and I come in and feed them when I can, while dealing with my daughter and trying to remember to eat, sleep, and pump breast milk. I am very scatter brained and emotional! So I'm not sure how much time I am going to have to write on here, but I do want to try and keep it up.

On the other hand, we have had some funny and interesting moments, while out of the NICU. We took Em to Science World, which is a pretty cool place and probably would of been better if half of the exhibits were closed. But Em loved the skytrain ride and playing with all the cool things at Science World.

I had my 34th birthday here, which wasn't planned. But we went to my favorite place for dinner Katana! It was so yummy and I do love the whole cooking in front of us! Anyways it was awesome! On my birthday though wasn't that great...hubby goofed up. I'm not going to go into details, but lets just say he forgot to do something. I was very upset, he tried to make it up to me a week later by taking me to The Keg, which was super yummy! And then we went to Crescent Beach for ice cream and sitting on the beach. It's a start to making up for it anyways. For my birthday I got me one of those fancy SLR cameras!! (saying that in a hick accent! lol) I'm slowly learning all the bells and whistles on the thing and how to take a great picture. I do love it and the quality of the pictures are awesome!!

Matt has taken Emma to the free swimming pool here in town which she has loved of course and we have also gone to the Critter Care Rescue Centre which was pretty cool, although way too many people for my taste. But we got to see all sorts of rescued animals and Emma loved that. Matt and I have seen a few movies while we are here to break up the routine. Although I have enjoyed them, it's hard not to fall asleep!

What I have really enjoyed the most while being here is time with my parents.  I forgot how much I enjoyed spending time with them and really miss it.  We have had some pretty good laughs, you know the kind of laughs that no sound comes out, tears in the eyes and maybe the occasional escaping fart!  They have been my saving grace in all of this.  I don't know if there is anything that I will ever be able to do to thank them. 

So my plan is to write little things on here so that it doesn't take up too much of my time, and provide updates and funny stories.

Until next time my friends!! Take care