All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us. – Gandalf
Okay so yeah I’m geeking out right now with a Lord of the Rings quote…but I love this quote.
Deciding on what to do with the time we have. Although none of us really know how much time it is we have, but making a decision on what to do with that time is easier said than done.
I have been none stop thinking on what to do with my time…my life. And I don’t think I have ever struggled so much before with these thoughts. But when it comes down to it why I am having a hard time is because of all the separate outcomes of different decisions. The fear of the unknown, of wasting time, of things not working out. I hate that I can’t figure out what I really want. Or maybe it’s because I want it all. I am someone who likes to have insurance that everything will be okay or work out. Also there is a slight anger and resentment that I haven’t done things sooner or that I have always done what is safe for me…least amount of risk….but not loving what I do.
Do I have another child and stay at home still, do I go back to school, if I go back to school should I look at taking something in business, computers, working towards running my own business, study to be a baker (which by the way – there is NO wedding cake provider in town! Hmmm untapped market), or do I stick with what I know, office worker and look at getting a permanent position at the hospital.
The hardest thing to learn in life is which bridge to cross and which to burn. - David Russell
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