Hmmm what to do, what to do....

So I’ve been thinking about my life recently. Who am I and what do I want to do for the rest of my life? Do I want to go back to school? If I do what should I take or do? How the hell can we pay for it? And then there’s wanting to have more kids? I pretty sure I do, should I do that first? Probably yes. So if I do that, what can I do in the mean time? Can I do that and go to school? And then going back to what do I take? I am torn. I don’t really want to do a typical 9-5 type of job anymore. I want to do something that I love or that makes me feel creative. Something that people like or would want to use. I have been throwing around a few ideas.


I would love to open a doggie daycare/kennel. I love dogs and I think I’m pretty good with them now. The major thing that is stopping me is that I think I would need another building on the property. That would house the dogs when the weather is cold or also to have a area for down time. I would make homemade doggie treats, they would have a huge place to run. So we would also need a fence for half of the property. And really I am just offering a service. If it took off, I could make easy and good money.

My other idea would be to open my own bakery. I would love to make cupcakes, cakes, bread, cookies, interesting desserts all that sort of stuff. Although I probably should narrow it down to take the desserts out of it. It would appeal to kids, teens, young adults and some women, workplaces, parties etc. The downside…the business that is for sell is sooooo expensive and personally I would totally renovate the inside of the place to update it. But I love the spot and that it has all the ovens, and supplies, stock etc. And the potential for failure is huge!

Also for an idea for school would be the social worker certificate. I feel that I am very empathic to people and that might be something I am very interested in. And it might be fulfilling. I would like something maybe to help people after abortions or help teens in need.

But honestly I am feeling the need for change…just I don’t know where to start. I wish someone would tell me what I need to do so I can follow a guide line. I like guide lines and structure when I am learning to do something. Which is maybe why I like trying new recipes and once I get a hang of it, then I modify it.  Who knows...

Anyways for my first post...I think I did okay...lol...even writing makes me nervous...like I'm exposing a part of myself...or maybe just trying to commit do to something day in and day out makes me nervous too...hmmm I guess that might have to do with why I am having a hard time deciding what to do with my life.